Well then today someone said to me "Wow you've been gaining weight again!" I almost hit the floor. Yes I've gained some back. Hello I was almost a skeleton before. I am working hard everyday! I feel better in my body. I have lost 7 pounds. I am working with my awesome brother/personal trainer Craig. It was painful to hear those words. I said to them well I have been working out and eating what I'm supposed to and I've lost weight. All they said was hmmmmm........hmmmm?????? really?
No one is perfect! I'm not for sure. I will never be. Even though I know I feel and look better those words still hurt. I remember growing up in school and walking though class with boys saying "Watch out the whale is coming!" Girls were not much nicer. I am thankful for private school. I'm sure that helped a bunch! However, I will never forget all of the words, stupid names, and looks I've gotten throughout the years. Even though I have lost the weight some words still hurt. Then it causes all of the lost bad words that have been said wash back into my brain like a monsoon.
Oh well this to will pass. Tomorrow is a new day. I will most likely work harder tomorrow because of the hurtful words. I have my yearly Gastric Bypass check up in a few weeks. It always makes me nervous. I think this year will be hard but I know that I am working hard, I will get better, and I will succeed.
P.S. I took this picture the other day before I worked out because well I felt awesome! I thought I looked amazing. I know I see change! So ha!
To those hurtful words from today all I have to say is FU!
WOW! People never cease to amaze me. I think a lot of people think that surgery is going to automatically change everything, and it is going to be simple from that point and you don't have to put in just as much if not more work as anyone else does. It just all goes back to how uneducated people are about the subject. These last 8 months (preop) have been the most difficult months for me. People who think that having weight loss surgery is taking the easy way out (I used to be one of those people), seriously have NO IDEA!! I know I didn't until I started the process.
ReplyDeleteProud of the way you handled that situation, because I can't say I would have handled it as well. LOL
Preop is always hard it is just straight up hard waiting! Well I didn't have a choice to handle it that way. It was someone else they would have forsure had something not nice coming right back!
DeleteHey Brittanie! My mom told me about your blog (I'm not on Facebook as much anymore), so I thought I would check it out. I can really relate to this post. I was teased too for my weight at our school, lost a lot of weight (100 lbs), and then gained a good amount of that back (~50 lbs). I'm trying to lose some of that weight again, but our bodies adjust. It's natural and normal, especially after losing a large amount. For what it's worth, you look fantastic. The most is important thing is that YOU are happy with yourself, and feel healthy :)
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